Aadmi Bulbulaa Hai Paani Ka

I really like it when my thinking defeats/counter argues with my thinking itself, for I believe that constructive debate with self is the best way of debating over something.

My brother taught me one golden rule about debating.. he said u can be on either side of debating.. u can be equally good on 'for' side as well as on 'against' side.. I truly agree with him.. many a times i have witnessed an on going debate in my own mind, where my mind is at both sides, its on 'for' side as well as on 'against' side. and i really wonder this amazing debate for normally its always mind vs. heart debate or good vs. evil debate.

Here I am quoting a similar debate, if u see my post here , I mentioned there that i really don't understand why am i existent or for that matter why this universe even.. my family have tried explaining it to me , my friends tried as well.. but i was not satisfied with there answer.(maybe because I am too stubborn to accept an advise from outside..) In fact have had many long discussion over this point of view of mine with many people. I always used to think that they don't understand my point of view for though they are not wrong in whatever they are talking but.. Excuse me! I am also not wrong.. I used to say If I wasn't there, someone else would have been there.. but the way things happen they are meant to happen this way.and my this point of view was always questioned, for there are so many things that only I can do and are not possible without me.

Me the stubborn never used to accept it. But today I suddenly realized, what they all talk about was actually true. I keep my winamp always on with always Ghazals playing on... I believe that same lines heard again and again reflect different meanings of it.. many dimensions of it.. I was listening to a Ghazal I might have heard 1000 times before... suddenly my senses stuck to one verse... and it just made me realize very thing which everyone was trying to explain from a long time... it was like...

"Chaahane waalon se jab matlab nahi,

Aap phir paidaa huye kinke liye..."

and it was Maktub.. :) Things just lie in front of you but You are lost in some mirage and a sudden light of realization washes all ignorance away..... so I would like to thank all of those who kept trying making me realize this very fact. Thank You hai ji :)

Saraab

Ek din highway pe jab
ek baadal ke tukde ki farmaish ki thi tumse
tumne koi jawaab tak nahi diyaa tha
main gusse mein muh fulaaye poore raatse baithi rahi thi
aur tumne manaayaa tak nahi tha
bas drive karte karte beech beech mein
mujhe dekh muskurate rahe the
ghar aake ek sheeshe ke martbaan mein
dhoop sulgaakar mujhe de diya tha
main kitnaa bigdi thi tum par uss din
aur tumne kahaa tha,"Baadal maangaa tha na, ye lo!"
main uss martbaan ko hairaani se dekhti reh gayi thi.
aaj maine ussi badal ke tukde se tumhaari farmaaish ki to
ussne mujhe tumhaari yaadein uss martabaan mein sulgaake de di
lagtaa hai meri tamaam khwaahishon-o-khwaab ki taamir mein ek saraab hi hai.....